Any Excuse...

Inspired by a notification I once got saying that my screen time was 'averaging at 24 hours per day'.

My sleep was interrupted and my day was unproductive, and though 23:34 looks like the perfect time to forget it all by getting drawn in by my new crappy romance novel, any excuse to jump mindlessly from one app to the other!!!!

And it’s like they’re all working together, to curate the perfect loop. I open TikTok and let my algorithm do its thing with flashing images of what will be my new autumn aesthetic. Mental note to buy their nail polish colour. I’ll also rewatch American Horror Story when I find some time in between all the nothing I have to do. Oh. A young glowing couple in a healthy relationship… and I remember I have unanswered Hinge messages. I get distracted by somebody’s profile because they like Pitch Perfect and I like Pitch Perfect and I should rewatch those movies instead of asking them out because that would mean human interaction over screen time. God forbid. Now I’ve forgotten about the people I was supposed to text back because I know and they know we’re only killing time so we can count this as our ‘love life’.

And I go on and on with this to fill my time before something more special comes along like I trust it will. But I’m certain when said something makes its way into my life I’ll be too busy watching Instagram reels.